I was watching Alicia Keys' new video last night and it really struck me that its been too long. Ive been 'single' for 15 months now. My mum would laugh at that reference to singledom because it's mostly an illusion and not a reality.
BUT whatever it is... I think it's time I get a boyfriend. I have this one in mind but it obviously cant work, for too many reasons. However, Im tempted to just sit here in trini and wait and wait until there might be a chance that it can. Just save myself for him, in a way.
But what if that doesnt work out (a very likely eventuality) I would have turned away / given up perfectly nice guys all for nothing.
With all that said... there are really no good candidates here right now. No one that would make me happy to give up the wonderful twilight zone thing we have going on.
My need to come out of retirement is based solely on how lonely a music video makes me feel and nothing more. Not a very good reason.
So I'll just keep hanging on to something that might just be all in my head. Who knows what goes on in the minds of the other sex. Im just such a terrible judge of character sometimes though...it scares me. Once a potcake always a potcake...right?
No Stamina four more weeks left in the school year and Im dying already. If I was a filly Id make it fine for the first 6 furlongs but after that id give up and cruise to the finish line..probably last. But being the smart girl that I am,I already have my problem diagnosed and the proposed treatment in my head. Just to implement it now. Im like a non-compliant owner. All talk and no action.
Proposed treatment plan.... 1. Some EXercise 2. vitamins - including the fat sooluble (A,D,E & K. I didnt make that up) and Some others 3. and a whole BiGLoving doSe of inspiration
