Homebody I stayed home last night. For some weird reason I didnt have the urge to a ladies free drinks free party. It was the strangest feeling. Maybe if Peanut wasnt sick. But anyways I think my night was almost as good.
Confidence The other day I had a bad parking experience. I love to drive but i hate to park. I really hate doing anything that I dont get the hang of immediately. Well anyways, the stupid park wasnt even that bad it was just kinda close to one of the lines, but somehow I felt totally failure-ish(my word dammit) and like i would never be able to park properly. I felt like that guy on Sesame Street with the piano, I'll never get it, NEVER!.... I love sesame street
but then i started doubting my driving abilities. I got all jittery and felt like i was going to die in some terrible car accident. But of course nothing happened because even though my confidence was gone my ability remained the same.
Its kinda like when you have those "Ugly Days" when you dont look good nomatter what you wear or how you do your hair.... and its just a matter of self image because you couldnt possibly have gained 5 pounds overnight.
anyways this is a totally pointless blog. im just putting something down here for Poster X. im his number one fan...heheh :)
De Sauce people want to know if I sauce it yet (do women sauce or get sauced? peanut lemme know) I dont see why mankind makes such a big deal out of sex. Its what we were put here to do. GO forth and procreate. God knew what he was doing when he created hormones and pheromones. All the animals do it... on instinct! but anyways... just for John Public, if i sauce it I will post a nice blog saying:
I Sauced It and confirm - yes/no the waist does/does not wuk good both in the fete and out - the largeness of the body extends/ does not extend to ALL places
/me walks off mumbling something about men not being a piece of meat ladies
So Difficult Im such a difficult person to like sometimes. I want what I want when I want it. Now all I have to do is find a nice guy that can put up with all that:D
The ade-tude, the hissy fits, the moods..... But in my honest and humble opinion, Im worth it. (like loreal:P)hehe
What I've Learnt (Summer Edition) - I can do what I put my mind to. - I actually love driving (hate paying for gas though:S) as soon as i can afford to Im going to buy a really sexy powerful manual car. Id love to be a rally driver. - Fears were made to be conquered - There are still good guys left. (whats left to be seen is whether there will be any once im settled into my life) - You never really know a person... - Everyone has a different idea of what it means to love someone - If you want someone as a friend forever dont have him for a boyfriend - I have potential to be a cat person - I love horses - Im a sucker for a sexy body
soon its back to trini...maybe i will have more to add before i leave
I dont want this vacation to end. how stupid of me to think that i could control my feelings. Officially this flam thing has gotten out of control. It has surpassed all expectations. And to think that I have to go back in a couple weeks and it all has to end... :( say no to long distance relationships, dont make the same mistake twice... three times:S But I enjoyed it all. Every moment, no regrets.
I killed a dog today. Its leg had to be amputated and the owner didnt "want no handihapped dog" This is what Im going to have to deal with in this profession. Its mostly about money...so its a good thing Im able to remove myself from the situation.
My So-Called Life
Im at that point in my life...again, where I have so much to give and Im ready to give it. I want more than I have now... but then again I'm never satisfied.
I like this chick Stacie Orrico. Her first song really appealed to me and I heard this one just now and I had to get the lyrics...
this is kinda how I feel
Stacie Orrico - More To Life (There's Got To Be)
I've got it all, but I feel so deprived I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing And why can't I let go
[Chorus] There's gotta be more to life... Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me Cause the more that I'm... Tripping out thinking there must be more to life Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more Than wanting more I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly Here in this moment I'm half way out the door Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing
I feel like this life is my dress rehearsal and Im still waiting for the show to begin
I Just Want A Shy Guy I dont like to compete. Competing means theres a possibility you may not win. And I hate to lose. So this is why I like diamonds in the rough. Undiscovered talent... Thats what i had with the ex before he started getting all buff and the ladies started converging like flies to molasses. Occassionally I unintentionally break this rule... the potcake is a known lady's man. But that couldnt be helped.
Now enter the flam... I didnt know too much about him since secondary school. Knew he was sexy and t'ing but I definitely wasnt expecting all this attention. Women just being brazen about the whole thing. Coming out the woodworks like termites! Lordy, I cant deal with it. I like my shy guys.... yuh know...the kinda guy that will only be mine.
I Dont Understand why do male models have to be so gay? Im here watching Fashion TV and although the bodies so hot (Im a huge fan of the male physique) these poses are so geared towards the male gay population. I LOVE a nice ass but this is ridiculous.
Who Ever Knew There has been this big box of Cheerios in my house for a week or so now and I havent touched them. I had a bad experience with the cardboard kind i refused to even taste these. But my sweetie mummy brought me some for breakfast this morning cause im sick so I had to eat them. YUMSICLES! (middle K word) Now I cant stop eating them. Moral of the story: you shouldnt let a bad experience rob you of your urge to try something new. you just might like it. or love it in my case