Sometimes I think I dare not say that Iím happy because as soon as I do something happens to change that. Or maybe I cant stand to be happy so I invite misery into my life. Whatever it is the happiness has left the building. Or maybe real happiness canít be altered by these trivial upsets I encounter. Maybe happiness isnít a destination but a journey. Heheh I sounding really philosophical. Oh wellÖ whatever it is it has eluded me for a while. It comes to visit but never stays.
Well my scars are healing. I guess time does that for you. Soon I will look like a normal person again.
I donít know when I will be home. Its like I shouldnít make plans or want something too much, because that gets screwed up as well. SOÖ as of today I am PLANLESS. No plans for tomorrow or next week or next year. I will be like a leaf and go where the wind blows. Im tired of trying to control a life which seems entirely out of my control.
AndÖno matter what this blog seems like. Iím not depressed. Iím numbÖ thatís what I am. The veritable stoic.
So Im back. Why? BecauseÖ Apparently everyone decided to take a break and I donít like to be jumping on anyoneís bandwagon. I like to be different. So you break, I blog. Iím not upset anymoreÖits amazing what a change of scenery can do for you. And Rory said he was going to miss me and we canít have that happening now can weJ
And whatís new?
I donít want to be ruin things by making premature announcements BUT I feel good about my situation right now.
For the first time in ages (years and years and years) Iím totally male ďcompanionĒ free and Iím not lonely.
And thereís something especially liberating about doing the right thing, especially when itís a hard decision to make.
Oh yeah and I was in a car accident and my face is all messed up (shattering the window with your face can do that) but Iím ok. Things could have been a lot worse so Iím not complaining.
AndÖ I passed ALL my courses so NO TRINI til Sept 8:D
Couldnít even last a week. This classifies as an addiction