Still Sleep Deprived after going to bed well after 5 this morning, I find myself up and frickin blogging. Thanks to my gawddamn big mouth flatmates. :@
well at least i had a great time last night. Went to watch Phone Booth. I still dont know how they kept me riveted the whole time and never changed location. The entire film is shot in Times Square (Gosh I miss NY)
THEN I actually went to a club as well. Sometimes the best limes are spontaneous.
AND guess what! I didnt even get tipsy. I had no urge to drink whatsoever.:D However the urge to beach is strong in this one.
anyways Im thinking Im the only one interested in my after exams relaxation. But oh my gosh... its raining! BACK TO BED!
wishing i had some soap, this is 20 toes weather:( ade
End Of E- word Blog those pesky things are done. So the celebration begins. Possible party tonight and if not then its movies and some consumption of legal mood enhancers. Not too much of course. Guilt free relaxation is underrated.
Know Jamaican? I went to shower this morning and noticed that my flatmate has a new soap, brandname Hood. It smells really nice. Its expensive so it should lather really nice too. Wouldnt it be nice to wake up to hood every morning, have hood all over my body. I guess there are really few things better than a nice steamy shower with hood.
Last Exam Related Blog why people just dont get it? Im NOT the study machine. I CANNOT study for 2 months straight and its just impossible for me to try to learn what i couldnt bother to learn the whole semester/ year. Im not YOU. And just because I dont like school it doesnt mean that i wont be a good vet. I dont see how anyone could come to that conclusion. I hate when people try to tell me how to live my so and so life. MY being the operative word. steeeeeuuppppssssse *that was a dose of the infamous ade-tude* OK enough thought dedicated to school.
THIS IS ME
I have issues. Everyone recognises that (just by reading a few entries in this blog) But this is me. The incessant mood swings, the jealousy the possessiveness, the mistakes. I try to change but Rome wasnt built in a day. So really... you can take it or leave it (like it or lump it;). It takes a REAL man to handle all this har-har-har I cant be that bad... they keep coming back for more.
Well... I Was Happy it scares me when they ask me easy questions in these orals. Its like... are they trying to help me to pass? that oral didnt go well. I dont know jack about Thyroid hormones... and they were like a frigging dog wid a bone with that topic. But i guessed right most of the time. So thats better than nothing i guess.
12 exams down 5 to go. This week is going sooo slowly. I dont have the stamina for these things. I feel like I been doing exams and dealing wid shit FOREVER. And I had the most blasphemous thought a few minutes ago. I actually thought, I cant wait for summer to be over. What was I thinking?I dont care how broke, bored, broken I will be... Its summer, its not trinidad and its not school. And thats a hell of alot.
My summer wishes: -to be chilling and working hard in Nassau for a good long time. I fell in love with that place....:) -to spend lots of time with my little ducky vampire. Hes growing up and soon he'll be walking and talking and understanding how much his aunty loves him. -basically to party hard and relax harder, with some fulfilling vet work thrown in there and a nice summertime romance and look great while doing it all:D not too much to ask is it?
i didnt think so.... so Mr Daddy, make it all come true thank:)
Mamita Huntress of Prey so im a great mood today. this is a happy blog just for Daana.:) My exam went well. And i wasnt even dressed as cute as possible. Tomorrow I bring out the heavy artillery. My motto: If youre going to be clueless...look good doing it. I impressed the external examiner. He even got my name right on the second try. I was alway good at that oral stuff...... exams. West Indies won!!! YEAH!!! Im loved.... even though im not lovable. They cant help themselves.... my hair looked good this morning. (even if it was for all of 10 mins) just call me the Rain Maker. ade's hair worn open = guarunteed rainfall Pork stew is always great for lunch. And my continuous assessment for Microbiology was good enough that i dont have to worry about this oral today.
by the way... things not to tell your room mate when she has 7 more exams to go - "Im so bored Ade... I dont know what to do with myself... I hate this." I think she understood the nasty look though.:)
Today Was A Good Day today was better. and by better i mean i didnt break down in tears for no goddamn reason. stress and pms do weird things to your emotions. but now im thinking clearly. i just think i should write something on my favourite topic in the whole wide world
Love now... before i was a huge fan. Love was everything... My great big aim in life was to fall in love and get married and have some kids. And I pitied the poor fools that had never been in love or thought themselves in love at one point in time. BUT now.... The whole, Its better to have loved and lost... THATS BULLSHIT! Thats there to help make Valentines Day successful.
Love is so inconsequential in the first place. You could love someone with all your heart and not beable to be with them.
And then theres the PAIN. When you love someone you open your heart to all types of emotions. And its only with true love that you experience excruciating pain. Not the pain you feel when when your bf of 3 months cheats on you. The real frigging deal. The cant eat, cant sleep, cant study, cant function, cant think, cant stop crying kinda Tabanka. And when you get that pain you NEVER forget it. You could have had the most wonderful times when you were all happy in love but thats not the stuff you remember. Its the break up thats the worst. The having to see that someone with someone new. And it doesnt end in a few weeks or a few months. Depending on how much you loved it could be YEARS before its ok to see him with someone new. So....love? BAH HUMBUG. Give me money and great sex and security. Let me like him a whole lot and get along with him famously. But no love. Because when the relationship ends (and it WILL END) I dont want to be the one unable to get on with my life. I want to shed a few tears and move on with ease. And think... AH that was fun... too bad it had to end.. OH WELL! NEXT!
Bitching And Moaning again X2 was great. Nice vacation from reality. At least it was a break from these blues I just cant manage to shake. But now Im back home and looking for some comfort in my novel.
I wonder if things will be better when i leave Trini and find my ass home.
How about.... I DOUBT!
now i see why people use drugs. sometimes reality is such a jagged little pill.
