Moody Ive been called moody so many times I would be dumb not to believe it. But I dont know if I can help it. Its not that I love misery and I welcome it to my life. Shit happens that makes me feel this way. Also I think way too much. If I were a little less analytical then Id just take things as they are and not question everything. BUT I do...and therefore Im moody and thats just me. take it or leave it:) Id leave it if i was you. not worth the stress
I'm OK! went on a pick me up trip to Tunapuna and theres NOTHING like looking SO HOT (I wouldn say it if it wasnt true) in a new pair of HOT shorts. Im in trinidad nobody knows me here! Carnival Monday here I come:)
and theres just something therapeutic about milking sheep. I swear
I Don't Care Call me superficial.... needy whatever. This Valentines thing is getting to me. I was OK before it started. The whole alone on Valentines blogging thing yesterday was all melodrama. Ade exaggerating. the usual. BUT today it really hit home. Im single and all alone in Trinidad. Just seeing everyone with their gifts (not even that important) and just knowing about those who have their loved ones around (flying in to trini and t'ing!!) makes things all that worse. And its like...no e-card, no email......no text messages!!! This hasnt happened to me since I was a yellerie at HC! long 10 years ago.
this is just me. im allowed to feel however the hell i want so dont tell me what i should and shouldnt feel!
in a bitchy valentines mood
off to tend to the sheep sheep girl signing out ARGGGGGGHHHHHH :)
Plans For The Big V Day Standard eight o clock class.
Classes all day til 5 during which time I will wrestle with sheep (no Im not kidding). Crawl home after 5, dead tired and smelling of ovine (NOT pleasant take my word for it)
Try to go jogging (we will see how that goes) study (HA!) then get ready to go out. Tomorrow night is Ladies First (carnival fete) and I'll be going (dont know how yet) all alone cause my flatmates talking Shite bout how they arent in the mood.
I am NOT staying home tomorrow night. I could find much better ways to get depressed.
I wonder how many of the masses are in my pathetic situation but its ALL GOOD
this is the cross I bear. Im still trying to find out why but im sure theres a good reason for it.
OK...before it was cool that my phone didnt ring. Im not that much of a phone person anyways. Now its just plain rediculous! And its getting to me. Especially now that Valentines is coming up. Yeah...me, Psyche, Goddess of the Soul is going to be lonely on Valentines Day. I mean Im going out with the girls... and as much as the feminist in me would like to proclaim that thats enough....it really isnt! I have no need for romantic entanglements (id much rather not have those!) but some testosterone would be nice! Never fear...I will just grin and bear it like the survivor I am. No acts of desperation for me. I will get over it. Click here for Machel (and Powder Puff Stripper) Image.
yeah this is what youre missing if youre not at Trini carnival.
It that time again.... when the exams are upon me and the urge to study has left me. ensuring my mediocrity once more. self destruction is my forte. i.e. i need to get my ass to studying and that is what i will do right now
1"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. 3"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 4How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.
Now generally I dont believe in quoting the Bible. It means too many things out of context. Bu this particular lesson is something that everyone should live by. If we all did this then the world would just be a better place.
Judge Not It's sh*t Like this that really gets on my nerves. I hate judgemental people. If somebody is doing something in the privacy of their own homes and it has no effect on anyone but said person then leave them to hell alone cause its really none of your business. Im SO sick of people playing the Im holier than thou and my shit dont stink role in my life.
I think someone is more likely to die by driving sleepy or alcohol poisoning than from 2 cigars a month. But who am I to judge? I have enough stuff to change about myself to have time to tell people how to live their lives.
Am I over reacting? Probably Am I sensitive about this particular subject? Definitely Am I over it now? Completely:)
Psyche, Goddess of the Soul does not let mere mortals ruin her day :) above all this ade
Just Call My Psyche, Goddess Of The Soul I was just reading some greek mythology and ive decided that im Psyche (not psycho!) which means "soul" and "butterfly". PERFECT she also had the love of Eros, aka Cupid. Only the best for me, right! Greek mythology....my new interest! ok i need to lay off the cigar puffing