too bad that doesnt mean anything special to me. My little sister....not really little anymore....is coming in today so Im happy about that. Im getting closer to posting the pics. I dont know whats holding me back. The pink slip needs another hair do so maybe thats in the plans for the day. And tomorrow i go to little sister's graduation. I didnt get to attend mine. I was busy in Baltimore. So I'll take lots of pics and pretend that its me thats graduating. I dont have anything to wear though. The story of my life:) Im in a party picture again.Pink slip and I make a couple appearances on the Baje page. Hopefully I will get to see my other girlfriends this weekend. We could have a nice girls night out tonight seeing that the love of my life is on the night shift. I wish I could drive. Im lapsing. Anyways. thats about all thats going on with me. ade
Ive been out and about for the past two days. Even though Ive only been frequenting the Public Library (oooooh!!) it's been excellent getting out the house. It just cheered me up. Ive been studying parasitology. Worms make the world go round folks. Dont ever forget that.
Yesterday was funny as hell. Im sitting there, minding my own business, trying not to fail this big ass exam I have in September and this guy comes and sits next to me. Now thats OK. I assume he's a tax payer and therefore he can sit anywhere he wants in the Library but it seemed that Mr Man and deoderant weren't on speaking terms that morning...or whenever he last took a shower. But the funny thing was that he proceded to start up conversation. He invited me to join him and his friends in the quest for finding the cure for HIV. hmmmm.... Now why am I a weirdo magnet? WHY??? it was so funny.
I also saw my old Chemistry teacher yesterday. Mr. Goodman. He still associates me with my ex. How strange is that? After all these years he's going to ask me what my ex is up to. That was 4 long years ago. Life.
Seeing HC (secondary school) brought back so many memories. It's funny how life always seems so simple in hindsight but is always so complicated while youre living it.
Today was another Library day. I also had a chance to spend time with the bf. Its getting harder and harder to find QT (quality time for those non-mushy types) I might also get a job...in the Government no less. Im going to be a civil servant!!:) hopefully. I would love some money so I could jump for Kadooment this year. (my priorities suck)
I think thats about it. Im no longer feeling like Oscar the Grouch. There's a smile on my face and I hope it stays there.:)
Ive come to the conclusion that being in barbados...well under my parents' roof...is bad for my mental health. Im going crazy here. It seems like I cant be happy anywhere. Im not happy in Trinidad. I wasnt happy in NY and Im not happy here. Im seeing a trend. Maybe....Im just not happy, period! The ever elusive joy. Does anyone have any ideas?
Im still unemployed. But staying at home and reading doesnt require money. My parents dont see it that way though. I guess I cant be a kept woman the entire summer.
Isnt it sucky when you have to depend on people. I find its becoming too easy for me to accept things from people. I used to have much more pride that that. But no more. From now on if I cant do something for myself then Im not going to do it. Self sufficiency is my goal.
I think I might blog more later when I've actually done something for the day.
Where's My Sunshine? It's been another one of those days. THeyre becoming too frequent now. This state of unemployment and pure laziness is grating on my nerves. Well maybe if I was allowed to laze guilt free it wouldnt be bad. But Im not. So basically it sucks.
On better news now I saw the baby move. It was the most amazing thing. When it kicks you can see her belly move. I have to stop calling him "it". When he kicks. But whats gets me all teary is the size of the little clothes. The socks....theyre soo darling! Im super excited now.
The pics...I just got another one from cyl. I took it when we were chilling in Newport Mall. I need to get around to posting. I have to ask permission first dont i? Maybe not. Maybe I can be evil and inconsiderate and post them anyways. yes...thats what I'll do!