Freedom At Last Finally, no more exams. I dont know if I passed all as yet but I wont stress it. Some of life's more important tests arent on paper. So Off to NY tomorrow. Im having mixed emotions but Im sure as soon as I see some sales it will be all worth it. So Im packing. i hate it. but whatever laters
So today I had an oral examination. The last 3 have been pretty shitty. I mean for 2 of them I deserved it. I didnt study and i went in there with my basic knowledge. But the other one I knew my shit. It just so happened that the examiner asked about something I havent heard about since year one.
But today....God was smiling on me. My guesses were on point!
So I dont regret chilling when I should have been studying. I mean people that studied all night got unlucky and got asked stuff that they didnt have a chance to study. Life just isnt fair sometimes. And oral exams are all about luck. Because its impossible to learn all the stuff they give us. IMPOSSIBLE. So its all about knowing some stuff really well and other stuff failry ok and even more stuff not well at all.
In Trinidadian news today, police continue their search for a man caught in the act of sexually molesting a donkey. Im not joking.
Im such an expert at giving advice and I cant even tke my own. Isnt that how it goes though. You cant change anyone. And maybe you cant even change yourself. Im still biting my nails. RANDOM!! sleep calls Dazed and Confused signing out.
So tonight I was talking to this guy.....a nice guy at that...and he said the strangest thing to me.
He said he liked stretch marks.
God bless his soul!
Im sure hes in the minority but it's comforting to think that there are folks that appreciate flaws. Being a fully flawed being myself....:)
Can I start a count down? Yes I think its appropriate at this time.
T-3 days for NY T-7 days MD T-32 days Bados
Life is good. And remember the fat in the lower abdomen is meant to protect ovaries. (well in females...duh!) Any attempt to get rid of it by exercise or cosmetic surgery could affect fertility. (my personal opinion:P)
Let's hear it for feminine softness and shock absorption.
Im passing these exams. Well Id better be! Im not coming back here in August. Not to mention how stink my parents would get on. But I have confidence that I will pull through. I dont know about anything more than that (50% is looking enticing). So exams have been going on for 2 weeks now. Im sick of them. Totally. and I cant even give up yet. My shakiest subjects are tomorrow and Friday. So I have to study like crazy. I dont know if Im capable. I also have to pack. I hate packing almost s much as I hate school. And thats a hell of alot of dislike.
I realised today that I have to be decently well off. I hate inconveniencing people. And more than that I hate having to depend on anyone. And even more than that I hate having to ask for something. But as my mum says you cant do it all alone. But Im proud of myself for getting this far on my own. One NY trip paid for in full by yours truely. I didnt even bother to ask my Dad for money.
Off to sleep or study....what a hard decision to make!! sigh
So yesterday was mothers day and I havent gotten my mother anything as yet. What kind of evil person does that make me? Im feeling some super Ade-bashing coming on right now.
First off my exam this afternoon was terrible. I got screwed majorly. It couldnt be helped though. The examiner asked some obscure shit and I lost it from there. I couldnt answer and that messed up my usual Pathology flow. I actually like that subject. sigh I dont know what Im going to do for the rest of these orals but things are looking bleak. Actually my Physiology exam went well. It seems like my tight skirt was wukkin:)
And also in Ade bashing news....No hope for reform. Ade will remain her flawed self til the end of her days. It seems like I cant change. I dont know whether I should waste the energy on trying to change or use it to accept myself. hmmmmm things to think about.
But...Im feeling Sheryl Crow...again. Seems like we think alike:) Well when Im in an optimistic mood.
It's not having what you want It's wanting what you've got
Back to my flaws...:)
But jealousy is a bitch especially when its unwarranted. I'll get over it though.
so this is all random. maybe i will blog something coherent later
This is my message for all the women out there. Yeah Im a women's rights activist now!:P
NEVER accept shit from any man! (well its visa versa as well) There are really too many nice guys out there to be wasting time on losers that arent worth your time.
My other advice
1. You cant change him. 2. You cant make him like you more. 3. Follow your gut feeling....its usually right. 4. Little things count. Watch for them. theyre little warnings that should be heeded to prevent further problems. OR theyre the little things that show he cares. 5. Have principles. Life is a great big grey area but there are some things that have to remain black and white. Setting these standards will ensure that you dont sell yourself short. 6. Looks arent even half the package. Theyre terribly overrated. From my experience good looking guys tend to think youre lucky to have them. (uh no!) I was blessed to get the whole package but there arent many out there. 7. No matter how busy someone is theres always 2 spare minutes in the day to call to see how you are. If he says he cant spare the time then he obviously doesnt know what youre worth.
I sound like frigging cosmo!:) But these are my thoughts. I have years of experience so trust me on this one:)