Back...again....finally. Guess I'm finally letting go of my vice:) Im so not in th mood to write anything. I'll write when im in a better mood. Which really defeats the entire purpose. sigh. Things just aren't great.
What a freaking productive night! Im definitely satisfied. I just came back from an intense study session in the study rooms at school and now it's time for some idleness (is that a word??) So it seems as though my addiction to the net is finally under control. Nothing like a stern speaking to from you mother to put you back on track. It seems like Im still a little girl. But thats ok, I'm like Peter Pan. I plan never to grow up. I still consider myself to be 18 or so. Which poses a problem because my little sister is 18. Although she's not supposed to grow up either. She's supposed to stay nice and sweet and 14 for the rest of her life. If she's 14 forever then I can be 18 forever and its all good like that! I missed my evening classes and had a 3 hour nap instead. Is it still a nap if its that long? but Im tired right now! Im just lazy I guess. Tomorrow then
On The Cock Controversy Just so no one gets the wrong impression. I wasn't suggesting that Im any expert on the whole chicken thing. I buy my chicken from the supermarket. I buy chicken parts....not even the whole chicken. I prefer thighs....dark meat is better to me. But when I buy the chicken I have no clue whether its a female bird or a male bird. So I personally dont know whether cocks are tastier. But if I manage to compare the two I'll be sure to let the general public know which is better. On another note. Im officially in possession of both my plane tickets. Barbados and Nueva York. This definitely makes me feel wonderful. I LOVE travelling. When the love of New York tones down I'll go some place else. But until that time its just me and NYC and our continuing love affair. When i get home I take lots of pics and I'll have access to a scanner so maybe then I'll have something to post other than my daily rantings. more later
Today was the feld trip to the poultry farm. Quite interesting. Especially the on-site post mortem. They just popped the poor chicken's neck! Birds are so dumb! But the funniest thing was when the question was asked, "Why are there so many males in the pen?" and one girl said confidently, "Because cock tastes better." Makes sense to me! I wasn't about to argue. That wasn't the reson by the way.:) Im sure it's all about personal preference anyways. Tonight, no more than 1 hour online. Nuff work flinging down! Plus I have to make time for Real World. Highlight of my week! So Im off to rest...or run. One of the two. Tah Tah
Yes Im on again. My sleep pattern is totally screwed. Full day tomorrow with a field trip and all. But I'm tired of Embryology and I cant sleep so what else am I supposed to do? Plus I'm in a mood (what's new?) Im feeling particularly incompetent. Can I do anything right? I like this song. Thus the name of my Blog. Sometimes one can just relate....
Don't Let Me Get Me
Never win first place, I don't support the team I can't take direction, and my socks are never clean Teachers dated me, my parents hated me I was always in a fight cuz I can't do nothin' right
Everyday I fight a war against the mirror I can't take the person starin' back at me I'm a hazard to myself
Don't let me get me I'm my own worst enemy Its bad when you annoy yourself So irritating Don't wanna be my friend no more I wanna be somebody else - Pink
Oh yeah. I forgot to note. Im returning to Baltimore in May. Its a bit premature to be thinking about it but these things happen when life is quiet. So Im going back for my (and I use the term very loosely) graduation. It's like a reunion for me. I havent seen these people in like 2 and a half years. I didnt even say Good bye to some of them. Just as a side note...I DETEST goodbyes. Id rather not do the whole mushy "I'll keep in touch" thing when you know you wont. And its very sad sometimes. I mean...people that played some important role in your life will no longer be a part of it. Im like a train station...people pass through my life..never stopping really. ANYWAYS...back to the matter at hand! So I'm going back to Baltimore. Im very very excited. I dont know who's looking forward to seeing me but Im definitely anticipating so many meetings.(Hey Rory!!) Some more than others. But in a way it's a bittersweet occassion. Im really going to this graduation to say my final goodbyes. I mean...once these people leave Hopkins and return to their respective towns or grad schools or whatever Im ensured that I wont see them again. Life is shitty like that sometimes. But there's always NY. Thats one place I'll be returning to as many times as I can. Enough blogging for one night.
Underneath Your Clothes There's an endless story There's the man I chose There's my territory And all the things I deserve For being such a good girl honey - Shakira
This girl is amazing. I love her songs. Well the released ones anyways. Isn't being in love a wonderful feeling? And not only can she sing? She can move! I swear....next semester...belly dancing lessons. Those would definitely come in handy. Its all about spicing up my life. Next semester though. And maybe even some Latin dancing lessons. One must always make time for something more than school! (I have so much talk!) IM going home in 11 days. What a glorious thought. Ten days of family and more.... Beach.... Movies.... sigh.... Life is great! Can we get an Amen!!??
I'm home for lunch. We finished a class early and I'm supposed to be catching up on some sleep. I actually made it to my 8 o' clock class. This took such an effort it's not even funny. But remember, when in doubt, press snooze. INSOMNIA. The last time i saw on the clock this morning was 5:35. Before that was 3:42, 4:17....a few others. I have no clue why I couldnt sleep. It happens sometimes, usually when I'm worrying about something. This awful tossing and turning. Maybe it was the lack of productivity this weekend. THEN...when I finally fell asleep I had a nightmare! I was kidnapped by Michael Jordan and held captive in his mansion (and this is a bad thing, why?). After lunch is Pharmacology lab. You know what...this is boring! My life is officially boring! What was I thinking??? I have nothing to fill a blog. But I'll write anyways:) More "nothingness" later enjoy You think I'd leave your side baby? - Sade
Another day another entry. Im being very good at this. Its obvious to me ( and Im sure you too) that I need a life. Today I slept just about all day. then I realised that when i sleep monday comes much quicker. So I came online and chatted instead. Now its late as hell and its almost monday and I still havent done much for the weekend. I need to snap out of this. Very quickly. Im in a bit of a mood now. The "Don't Let Me Get Me" song would be very apt right now. I need to stop with the Ade bashing! So from now on...its only good Ade thoughts. Im not finished my romance novel yet. This is a particularly bad one. Its not gripping at all. It's like lady, you love the man...stop playing de ass!! How annoying. Thats the thing though. Does it make sense to put yourself out there and make your feelings known? Or should one just play coy and do the whole flirting thing. Do men like females that flirt? From my observations they do. The giggly girlies get the most attention. I find it particularly annoying. Please! And why are men so cowardly? if yuh like the girlie let her know! By the way this isnt about me. This is about someone elses experience. More later...maybe Its been a hard week for me though. Things getting rough. I definitely need to go home. My tank is on empty! Please God...save the kittens! more later