the radio is killing some soca
my phone is ringing and it's an overseas call
im being swept away and enjoying every minute of it.
all is well with my world
Ade from homepage @ 10:59:00 PM
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Should I Leave or Should I Stay?
To go to London this weekend or not... I want to go and have some West Indian exposure. But I dont think Ive earned it. The other option is to stay here and try to get my life in order. Well that and reading. I have War and Peace and The Count of Monte Cristo and those two should keep me busy til the next millennium. I mean seriously, what kind of story needs 1243 pages of fine print?
Straight Up - I Ache
I am loved. Quite a few people think I'm something special. I even think Im something special.
I focus on that mainly.
But at other times I can't help it. It hurts.
As much as I tell myself to just get over it... I still haven't.
I'm weak.
I admit it.
You hurt me
congratulations
ade
Ade from homepage @ 11:14:00 PM
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Smiles
Today was one of those days that got worse before it got better. I was doing my usual... feeling sorry for myself. Feeling quite the failure. I'm not good at this adult responsibility thing. It's shameful but I've never had to apply for a job. So the reality of rejection (imagine THEM rejecting ME) is quite a slap to the face for me. It makes me want to roll over and play dead.
But I put it all in perspective. It's like every other thing that Ive tried to do but didnt quite get right on the first try. I'm going to get it right eventually. I cant get frustrated and want to give up everytime I don't hit the ground running. Im going to be a responsible adult one fine day. In the mean time I can be happy that I have a good security net now and I'm lucky enough not to have to take the crash course.
Hi5 is Good For Something More Than Time Wastage
I met a guy... again. Met him in Bim a few years ago but back then I had a beau so the frisson of electricity that passed between us was quickly quieted. Now out of the blue I get a friends request from none other than Mr. DL Gorgeousness himself. Apparently he felt the heat before the fire was put out and the feeling was
mutual. But as life would have it the tall, handsome, intelligent, ambitious, easy going, interesting male that is apparently interested in moi is not ANY where near these co-ordinates.
And guess who his house mate is/was... Perfection in Sexiness. All that hotness in one apartment...lawdamercy.
And talking bout Caribbean male hotness. SEAN PAUL in the new video... the stiffness and apparent lack of coordination looks soo good on him. He never appealed to me before but something is definitely working for him this time around. And those three dancers in white... oh my! classy bashment
Video hotta!
Say no to drugs but say YES to Sean Paul
'we be burning(8)'
Ade from homepage @ 7:31:00 PM
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If Your Girl Only Knew(8)
I dunno. Shoot me but I dont think there's anything wrong with flirting when you have a significant other. Obviously there's a line that you cross when you make your guy/ gal look like an idiot. But so long as it's understood that your woman is the centre of your universe what's the harm in a few less than gentlemanly comments?
Granted I would hit the roof if I found out my guy was flirting with some chick on the net. But that would be the jealous bitch in me taking over my logical self.
We all like to know that we're desirable. And being desirable to the person that loves you no matter what is really nice but theres a serious bias involved there. So if that chick thinks youre a cutie without the love goggles on then that's something different. I think it keeps life from getting mundane. I would think that admiration from the same person day in and day out can get a little old after a while.
But what do I know?
Relationship advice from a single woman
:)
ade
and Cosmo is a must for every young female. Im telling you... that magazine is GENIUS
Ade from homepage @ 4:01:00 PM
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Living The Quiet Life
So far I'm still jobless. I'm good enough to be a vet but apparently nothing else. So money being what it is I'm forced to live the quiet life. Which sucks. I wouldnt mind it so much if there was good cable or if I wasnt sick to death of msn. I spent many days in Trinidad content to waste my life away infront the television or reading a good novel. But I've read all the books here and so far I haven't found a good second hand book store. Maybe I'll join the library.
Well anyways I want to party. I was speaking to someone who told me they've 'outgrown' partying. I dont think its something you outgrow. Maybe a particular scene gets tired or seeing the same people and hearing the same music gets lame. But I saw some older ladies in the club having more fun than I was. And there wasnt anything pathetic about it either. It was the mature part of the club, more of a lounge style. They were playing oldies so it wasnt like they were trying to be young. They were just dancing and enjoying the music. I hope I never 'outgrow' enjoying myself that way. I didnt even have any alcohol the other night and just dancing to the music made me feel high.
However, I wish I didnt crave excitement so much. I wish I could be content with a boring life. Well my life isnt super exciting right now. But I am NOT content with that.
I think I'm going to fall in love this week. Just for the heck of it.
:D
ever so slowly
losing my mind
ade
Ade from homepage @ 10:33:00 PM
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You're Beautiful, It's True - Smile of a Stranger
I saw your face, in a crowded place and I dont know what to do. Cause I'll never be with you.(8) - James Blunt
I was on campus (Leeds Uni) the other day. Just sitting on a bench, enjoying the beautiful weather when this tall light brown guy with dreads passed by. As cute as he was, he was even cuter when he looked me straight in the face and smiled. My heart skipped a couple beats.
Let me put this in perspective. There arent many Black people knocking around this place. Weather isnt always sunny and warm. Not that many attractive black guys around here either and the few you see are usually walking with their heads down, looking straight ahead in a vacant stare or chatting with some (usually Caucasoid) female. And NO ONE gives out random smiles. So for a tall, sexy browning to randomly smile at me on a sunny day....that was more than a little pleasant.
Went to a club last night. Its confirmed... the phenomenon of the least attractive guys being the first to step to you is universal. And the ONE guy that you would LOVE to come say his keeps his distance.
yet another boy crazy blog
this is getting lame
ade
Ade from homepage @ 6:56:00 PM
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