Oooh That Hurts!
somewhere along the line i got caught up in pleasing everyone else. It's as natural an instinct as breathing. But in the end, it breeds disaster and I now have to start all over again.
Its all about me behatch!
that was convincing!
i cant take the pain:(
Ade from homepage @ 2:12:00 PM
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My First Farewell
I just got in from a great party. It wasnt too full, the drinks were f lowing and I had MUT's sweet waist to keep me company. But I also saw my Jamaican friend and he informed me that he will be leaving on Friday for home and he wont be back in trini til after I've left. I dont know wehether it was the booze or whether I felt such genuine intense sadness (the latter) but I broke down right ther in the middle of the fete. It was quite inconvenient. But there I mourned my first goodbyeb..and embarrassed MUT infront all his friends
I couldnt help it. The tears wouldnt stop coming.
Im tired of saying goodbye.
Ade from homepage @ 10:08:00 AM
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It's Official
the pass list is up and my number is on it. so barring any magnificent screw up on UWI's part its official, my time here has come to an end. Now fingers crossed for graduating with honours. It is entirely possible. I wait with bated breath for the results and yes, you will be second to know (well those who care anyways:D)
Ade from homepage @ 8:42:00 PM
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Segregation - I See White People
Segregation is as alive and well as when Apartheid was legal. I go to clubs here on different nights and the crowd is as different as night and day ...literally.
And I cant blame the owners. Its a definite money making venture.
I mean all you have to do is up the price and play a certain type of music and you have your "crowd".
Of course never underestimate the power of the "masses" so in that case you give out more complimentaries and give UWI students a break and play a whole other type of music and you have your other crowd.
I went to this bar tonight. I felt like I had stepped into a different country alltogether. If a bomb went off in there half of the young white population of Trinidad would have been wiped out.
Can I blame them for sticking to "their own"? I dont think so . When I was at Johns Hopkins the black people all hung out together and if anyone dared do otherwise they were labelled an Oreo.
The funniest thing is I could count the real white people on one hand. The rest were absolutely not Caucasoid.. and if they thought they were they would have gotten a serious reality check outside of the Caribbean where race is much more clearly defined.
All in all.. a really good night. Went to 51 degrees for the first time. I like it there and I ALWAYS love hanging out with my Trini sistren. Lord only knows Im going to miss them when I leave.
cant complain
ade
Ade from homepage @ 7:14:00 AM
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Lust
I want to be rich. Before I was thinking about comfortably well off. Forget that! Stinking, filthy, I-don't-need-to-look-at-price-tags rich. That covers about 3 of the deadly sins right there (lust, greed, envy....) and therefore Im sure that Im going to hell but I cant help it.
So I went to West Mall today looking for a nice dress for the oath taking ceremony. The stuff there was soooooooo gorgeous and so bloody expensive. It was painful looking at all the clothes I would look so nice in if only I could afford it. steups.
And there was this one furniture store that had me close to ectasy. I could see every single piece in my remodelled brownstone.
torutre i say, pure torture
"I'm proud of you"
those words make me feel so good. I havent had it said to me too many times. Makes me want do fantastic things just to hear it some more.
im proud of me too
Ade from homepage @ 9:41:00 PM
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Is It Too Much To Ask...
for these damned tv shows to have a proper conclusion. Its like everything I watch has me waiting for the next installment. Star Wars, Lord of The Rings, Harry Potter, every frickin horror and now Desperate Housewives and Grey's Anatomy. Lost better have a good season finale. I need some closure dammit.
Let Me Cater To You Baby
So i have a friend that has this hangup about not being a "punk" for a guy. She's more concerned about not being a fool than she is about pleasing her man.
I kinda understand this train of thought especially if youve been hurt before or taken advantage of.
But to me if you really love someone its your pleasure to give them pleasure. thats just my opinion.
I look forward to the day that I can totally give up all my "pride" and be happy just catering to my man. Isnt that what its about? him pleasuring you and visa versa. it would be selfish to just take and take without giving.
thats why i love this song.
Let Me Cater To You
Cause Baby This Is Your Day
Do Anything For My Man
Baby You Blow Me Away
now that's how you love a [worthy] man!
Biological Clock Officially Resumed Ticking
I held a baby on Saturday and I was filled with this great longing.
And to think I didnt want one of my own. Scratch that idea (yes im fickle i know). I need a little one of my own eventually. Whether I give birth or adopt i have way too much love to give not to be a mommy.
ok time to sleep
less than two weeks
can we say anticipation?
:)
Ade from homepage @ 4:09:00 AM
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