Self Love - Just Doing Me - My Epiphany
No one can love me like I love myself. I have to admit it wasn't easy.
One would think it would come naturally but it didnt and it was only after many failed attempts that I've reached this point.
But Im proud to say Ive acquired the skill.
And now Im a serious advocate for self love.
So everyone should try it if they havent gotten the hang of it yet.
Invest the time and effort in selfish love and believe me, you will reap the rewards.
After that it will be so hard to share all that love again.
just
doing
me
:D
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Im loving that new Mariah song
when you left i lost a part of me(8)
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The Portrayal of Black Women on Television
This doesnt really relate to Caribbean women but the way African American women are portrayed is disturbing.
How many times have I watched my reality shows and seen all the finger snapping, eye rolling, neck popping, diva-ish behaviour higlighted?
As if all black women are psycho bitches. Think of Ormorosa and Stacey-Ann from the Apprentice, Eva from ANTM, that black woman on Suvivor Palau, Da Brat on Surreal Life 4, Millie from Power Girls and this latest chick on Making the Band 3.
Of course the casting directors choose those kinds of women because theyre assured drama. But it does nothing to dispel the stereotype of african american females as full of attitude, easy to offend and ready to steam roll over anyone with an opinion different from theirs.
But in their defence it's hard being an African American woman in the US. You have to put up with so many prejudices and so much unspoken ridicule.
A whole culture telling you that blond hair, blue eyed, big tit, skinny, airhead bitches are the epitome of beauty... where does that leave the typical black woman? Probably with a huge chip on her shoulder and an unhealthy inferiority complex.
Theres no excuse for being a bitch. No excuse for hurting people's feelings, no excuse for causing unnecessary strife, but most of the time African American women are misunderstood.
Theres nothing wrong with deciding youre not going to accept sh*t from anyone, standing up against injustices, being the one to speak up... having an opinion.
Thats why I like Girlfiends. It shows black women as successful, stylish and classy (well Joan at least) at the same time showing them as strong and opinionated. Something to emulate (well except the man problems).
This blog is all over the place.
I wish I was more eloquent.
but thats my rant.
:)
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Im An Addict
Ive taken the first step, now what.
I was watching this documentary on HBO tonight about drug addicts and even though im not pushing dirty needles into my veins (how totally gross is that?) I feel their pain. It's not that they dont want to be sober, its just some people are weaker than others.
Its like how I feel about studying. If I was to compare studying to staying "clean"...
Every day I say today is the day I will study and every day I disappoint myself. And every now and then I will get in a good couple hours and then just fall off the wagon again. The internet, telephone and television are just too much more appealing than studying. Why would I give up a night of partying for a night of studying?
Im too old for this hedonistic outlook on life.
how many times am i going to allow my opportunity to live up to my true potential pass me by?
and yes i know ive written this same blog too many times to count over the years but Im an addict and this is my pain and this is my gawddam blog.
weak
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but on the brighter side of things Im doing super in school:D
my last 3 assignments
22/25, 18/20, 23/25
and just a note for clarity. those that dont know me might take my weekly crushes seriously. please dont. i invent them to make my life a bit less mundane. the mind is a powerful thing.
off to study... [dear lord please dont let girlfriends be on tonight]
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The Anatomy Of My Infatuation - Want A Natty Pun Me Frontline (8)
So I've managed to develop a strong but no doubt fleeting attraction for a guy. And its actually not mr. perfection in sexiness. Even though I wouldnt mind having that natty on my front line.
Its my "date". It really hit me hard at Zen the other night. Maybe it was the ambience, maybe it was the Guinness (quite likely)... whatever it was dude was wukkin'. You could have something infront your face for so long and all that needs to happen is you see him in a different light that you hadn't imagined before.
I love to see a guy interacting with his guy friends and holding his own. I don't know... guys give each other a whole lot of heat and to see a guy give it as good as he gets it is very attractive. And then seeing him enjoy himself totally independent of the hotness I had to bring to the table.
He wasnt trying to impress or pressure me. What a turn on.
And he wasnt the most stunning of his crew. Theyre not a bad looking group at all. But maybe thats why he didnt have that cockiness a few of them had going on. Quiet confidence... mixed in with a bit of vulnerability (real or imagined) sigh.
and we ALWAYS have a great time when we go out.
so in actuality, my infatuation has nothing to do with looks. its a combo of the smile (those lips), the waist, the independence, the confidence, the fun times and the alcohol(lol).
I love me a regular guy
pinky is going to have a laugh when she finds out who this is.
lol
just being me:D
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