I Got Some Behaviour After All
So when I got the first bad mark for deportment I shrugged it off as a misunderstanding. When I got the second I went through a series of emotions. At first I was pissed as hell (as evidenced by previous blog), then the anger subsided and I was sad about the whole thing. I started doubting myself. Wondering if I was really that terrible person that some people seem to think I am. After I thought the whole thing through I decided that I was in vet school to learn. Knowing the work is only half of it. At the end of the day I still have to interact with my clients, my colleagues and my employer in order to be a successful vet. So I made the decision to go talk to these lecturers to see what they had to say. Why I was rubbing them the wrong way?
I hate criticism. Im not one to take it very well. Im good at criticising myself but when others do it I see it as a personal attack on my character. Anyhoos, to cut a long story short, one lecturer described something that I would describe as my natural ADE-tude which i need to learn to tone down, the other one said that the mark was a mistake and it was more a question of attendance and punctuality (i had issues with wakin up that rotation). He gave me good advice about my enthusiasm levels (im not good at faking it) and he also let me know that he expected more of me because I had aced his section in the big ass exams last year. #1 in Equine in the whole class. Im proud of me.
I digress. So at the end of the long ass blog, my lesson for the day for those who reached this far is...
Its not easy to take criticism, but if it is your goal to be the best person you can be then you just have to suck it up and endure it. Because sometimes as sure as we are of who we are, there are still a few things we cant see without the help of others (kinda like lettuce stuck in your teeth):P
Im not saying change yourself because someone doesnt like you. Im just saying take what others say and analyse it and if you can see room for improvement in yourself then work on it. You cant go wrong with self-improvement.
i feel much better
ade
and shea butter is back. YEAH!
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im so tired of feeling that i have to prove myself to other people.
it sucks that in the real world ass kissing is required.
why cant people just accept you on the job that you do? why do you have to pretend to like people that you wouldnt normally care about if they werent in a position of authority?
im not fake. im at school to learn not to make friends.
i hate vet school
talk about motivation to study... i will show them
end rant
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Three Years
Tomorrow makes three years that Ive been blogging. Who would have thought I could stick with something for so long. SO that got me thinking more than usual after looking through some archives. I know my blog says Change Is Good. But really how much have I changed in the three years? Still cant study. Been through (that sounds bad but hey) 2 boyfriends and a couple love interests and still no cigar. Still have so many more improvements to make.
Baby steps though... Rome wasnt built in a day.
Million Dollar Baby
What a movie! Hilary Swank was as good as she was in Boys Dont Cry. I wanted to cry so badly at the end but I held it in. I watched Monster last night for the first time. These biopics really get under my skin. I wonder sometimes how I would have turned out if I didnt have such a wonderful family to love me and such great girlfriends that have stuck by me through all these years. If I would have been able to overcome circumstance.
anyhoos this movie got me emotionally drained
maybe i should go study...
HA!
ade
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