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Saturday, January 08, 2005

Yesterday was MUT's birthday. Im still thinking of delicious ways to make up for missing it.

Tomorrow is Departure Day.

I'm not looking forward to it. Before I left Trinidad there was a prolonged period when sadness had enveloped me like a wet blanket. Just invading every crevice of my life and colouring my days black.

When I came home it was like basking in eternal sunshine and getting the best tan lines ever! The honeymoon lasted the entire time too. My parents did a little half hearted harrassment yesterday and today but for the most part I was left to my own devices.

It was a pleasure observing Kosi Bean's antics. That boy is a trip. And watching Aza develop her very own personality right before my eyes. Just a joy to be around my family and friends on a whole. Even after the comment at the vet it was a great experience. Im happy that I got over it and I'll be looking forward to working there again in the summer.

So Im going to miss it all terribly.

But there's carnival in full swing, and every other thing that I love about Trinidad to get back to. I will try to keep the moping to a minimum and do what i can to enjoy my last 6 months there. Bond with my Trini peeps that Ive come to love over the past 5 years and just enjoy student life as much as I can.

Soon the Peanut and Kiwi will be there and we will have a blast.

It's going to be all right.
I have what it takes.
I know I can do this.

There's the temptation to add another Kalonji song... it's all the rave now:) I think I'll resist... Oh what the heck. I cant help it. It's good advice for everyone to take to heart.

Yes you got to be strong
And be all the best you can
The world is out there
Conquer your fears
And don’t you wait too long



i harbour no negative feelings for anyone - im so over it.

ade


Ade from homepage @ 9:07:36 PM

Thursday, January 06, 2005

random stuff
Im a Free groupie. She is so cute. Oh my gosh. Seeing her at Boat Yard made my night.


"Sizzla - My Love" [Sunshine Riddim] ooh my. those lyrics. beautiful. sigh....

(8)this is dedicated to the girl I love..
I think about her everywhere that I go(8)

life is good. cant complain
:)


Ade from homepage @ 7:05:55 PM

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

Can't Nobody Hold Me Down

I started work with a vet yesterday. So far so good. Its tiring but Im getting to see lots of interesting stuff. So the thing Ive been dreading happened today. I tried to avoid certain Bajan vets because 1. I dont plan on working here and 2. They have this idea that the vet programme at UWI is a waste of tax payers money.
One of the vets made a comment to that effect today. I wont lie. It made me feel a bit inadequate. Took away some of the confidence that I was slowly starting to build. But whose fault is it that Im not quite brilliant enough for a scholarship or rich enough to go to the North America or the UK? Does that mean Im supposed to give up my dream of becoming a vet?

Well (supposed) second rate education or not... Im going to be a damned good vet. The only thing that could stop me is myself. And I have something to prove.


Ade from homepage @ 6:20:20 PM

Monday, January 03, 2005

Cliche First Blog Of The Year - Happy New Year

Some people dont believe in making resolutions. I say why the hell not. You never know what you can achieve if you dont try right? And what better to try than self-improvement. I feel like I've been fighting a losing battle with that for many many years now. But sometimes I do something impressive and I realise that a year ago I would have done something dumb in the same situation. So its working... just slowly.

So my resolutions:

(1) Recognise my true worth: Im not a bad person, I try my best to do unto others as I would have them do to me. Why should I let someone who doesn't have my best interests at heart belittle me and make me feel like less than I am? I will try my best to only listen to constructive criticism and tell everyone else to Fuck Off. As you can see giving up swearing is not one of my resolutions. Im sick of people trying to bring me down. Its best to just eliminate them from my life.

(2) Value my loved ones more: I am thankful everyday for my family and my friends. Living in Trinidad is a lesson in the brevity of life. You really never know when someone you love will be taken from you. So I will try my best to let those I love know it always.

(3) Stop settling for less: I have been accepting mediocrity from myself and from others for way too long. Every year I try to fix this problem but I still havent mastered it. I need to apply myself more and to stop making excuses.

(4) Lose this frickin weight for good!: This will be the hardest to achieve. I love food and I hate going to the gym. I need some kind of physical activity that I enjoy... well another one;) I just never feel like I have enough time.

(5) Plan for the future: I gave up on planning a while back when things werent working out the way I wanted. I've been living the complacent life in Trinidad, waiting until I finish this degree. Well the end is near and I have to start thinking about where I want to be in the next year, 5 years, 10 years and start working hard towards my career goals.

thats the short list:)

and old years night was great. As I expected midnight kisses are way overrated. It was comforting to be counting down with the girls I've know for almost all my life. Shea butter was missed... her and her Sprite bottle .... snicker:)


Ade from homepage @ 12:06:14 AM

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