Embracing The Manic - Depressive In Me
As always problems seem smaller in the daylight. So the potcake is officially off the market. Even though I had moved on a while ago a very small part of me still belonged to him. But now that chapter is completely over. Its time to delete/destroy pics, greetings cards and letters again. Just wipe that slate completely clean and get over it. (i must admit im becoming a boss at this) And though Im 99% sure he wont be reading this page anymore, just in case...
I wish him all the best. If it was meant to be it would have been. Im just happy for all those experiences:)
even though im not studying and my personal life is shot to pieces.. life is damned good.
Little sis is home and i will be home shortly. Although that brings its own issues its home and that is where i belong... with my family and friends whom i love dearly.
:)
Ade from homepage @ 12:01:48 AM
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Just One of Those Days...
So Im all into being the best vet I can be. And this requires getting some feedback from my lecturers and the clinicians I work with at the clinic. Im not the best with criticism but I think I can take my share quite well. So this clinician said he wouldnt hire me. His words were my medicine is sound and my client - vet relationship is very good, but he doesnt think I would get along with the other vets in his practice. Apparently his idea of my being "fiesty" is that Im opinionated and strong willed and that is not conducive to harmony in a multi-vet practice.
I took it to heart of course. Even though I have never had any problems at any of the clinics Ive worked at. So I asked my classmates about my personality.... kinda the same thing was described. I know I have more ade-tude than the average person but I have never thought of myself as disruptive or confrontational. NEVER.
All this time Ive been under the assumption that I was a nice person. Obviously I was disillusioned.
then there's the endless studying i cant seem to get done.
and those guy-girl issues that arent resolving.
then it was raining this evening. not a serious downpour, more of this pervasive drizzle that just made everything grey and icky.
and then I come online and the potcake is missing someone. I know its not me. and i know i shouldnt care. but i do.
what next?
what a shitty day.
Nobody's Home - Avril Lavigne
What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Ade from homepage @ 10:40:10 PM
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That Time Of The Year
Its time to study again. Super sized exams in a week and some. And I still havent settled down and gotten down to it.
After a kazillion years in school I still dont know how to study. And as usual the more I procrastinate the more panicked I become... and that sets up a vicious cycle. Add a couple personal issues to the mix and you have a cocktail for failure.
But not me. Failure is not an option. Especially not now when I can see the end in sight.
Lord help me.
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Ade from homepage @ 3:19:13 AM
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No More Complaining About My Lack Of A Life
As always God sends me reality checks whenever I get to bitching and moaning too much.
I used to talk to this guy around the time i was promoting the section last year. He was one of those Nice Guys. Came over to chill a couple times and chatted on the phone on and off. But he became too persistent so I started to ignore his phone calls. He stopped calling.
So I get a call today... he was murdered over the weekend.
Outside a club that ive been dying to go to check out.
At least I know my house is secure once im all locked up tight.
Tragic
now to delete his number from my phone.
this is sad
Ade from homepage @ 9:49:30 PM
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nice try but no cigar - a quickie
so i just finished chatting on msn with 3 attractive intelligent females. All single.
Im thinking....
what exactly is it? Is it that their standards are too high? Or is there really such a lack of quality males out there.
I wont lie... I had to settle for less than ideal on a few things with MUT.
First off I never thought I'd be with a guy that smokes. I find the habit replulsive. But I looked at the big picture and it wasnt such a big deal in the grand scheme of things.
DO we have no choice but to overlook some things or face the consequences?
This is life i guess... you try to do everything right and do the best you can and still have things not work out.
this is just life
its a bitch....
Ade from homepage @ 3:48:52 AM
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