Happy HourS What a night! My reintroduction to the trini scene was successful. Partied hard for hours tonight and i got many appreciative comments from the members of the opposite sex, even those of South Asian descent. Also it turns out that I didnt get unfaired by Public Health...infact I have to say I did pretty well...another A :D when ever things seem so perfect I just have to hold my breath and wait for the plunge. my life is such a rollercoaster...but i will enjoy this high while it lasts.
Single life is great, even if i just spent hours working up my appetite only to go to bed hungry. ;)
I hate it. But to avoid it is cowardly and possibly lethal to a relationship. Sometimes avoiding it just helps wounds to fester. Confrontation helps to get things in the open, clear up misunderstandings. People don’t always know when they’ve made a mistake. Lord only knows how many people don’t like me because of some dumb thing I’ve said in jest to offend them. 99% of the time I don’t mean to be offensive. It’s not in my character. I wish people would let me know when I’ve said or done something stupid so I could explain myself or mend my ways.
Someone can’t right a wrong if they don’t know they’ve done something wrong.
AT the same time its wise to choose your battles. Dont be like Don Quixote fighting windmills
And in related but not so related news
Relationships require effort to keep them alive. All kinds of relationships need work family, friends, significant other. Its like a plant (all these analogies) some require a lot of water, I have quite a few cactus relationships that don’t need much work. But all plants will die without water…even cacti. So this Christmas, God willing, I cant correct some mistakes and water some plants and hope they can be revived.
Top Of The Class, Top Of The World I did better than expected in my anaesthes Biology exam. Got the highest in the class… 90 something percent at that. It might sound like showing off… but it’s just nice to have something for your mummy to be proud of for a change. And I’m proud of myself too (well maybe I’m showing off just a little:)
Ade Kinch, Man Eater with Chopped Liver for Feelings
Today I was implored not to hurt this guy that I chill with on occasion (and it aint even like that). It struck a nerve. Reminded me of the time when I started dealing with the ex and the same request/ command was issued by MY friend no less. Its like who gives a damn about someone hurting Ade. And at the end of the day after these supposedly vulnerable, untainted nice guys have moved on and happily set up shop with someone else IM the one left licking my wounds. Feelings smashed. Pisses me right off. These are grown ass men making adult , INFORMED decisions not little boys to be coddled. Like I twist somebody’s arm and ordered them to come chill with me. grrrrrrrr
SO who's looking out for me and my feelings???
Or maybe im just upset that these lecturers set shitty exams!
It’s great to have a constant in one's life, especially in my life where consistency seems to be lacking. But it’s been 19 years and she’s still around. And even though we’re like chalk and cheese I know that when it counts she’s there for me; to at least listen even if not to understand. Through the thrills and spills, through my moods and hers (that’s a HELL of a lot of moods) the fall outs and the misunderstandings… I have her back and I know she has mine. And just knowing that is enough to let this friendship last for at least another 19 years and beyond.
Thank God for best friends and occasional partners in crime