Yes, Again the reality of the situation is that Im all sick and tired of studying. Also I hate all of you that are going to be in Club XTreme tonight. Not dislike...but hate with a venomous passion.:P And of all days to be emotionally unstable. And of all days for people to perpetuate my stinking mood. I hate trinidad. i cant wait to leave this frigging place behind. then again i hate everywhere. ok enough already. no im not going to study. im going to mope online somemore. yeah... thats what im going to do. 6 frigging exams next week. they trying to kill me???
Becareful What You Ask For.... so I wanted sleep.... guess who didnt study at all yesterday and slept all afternoon and night. BUT thats not the best part of it. I have tonsilitis and I feel like cah cah hole. Of ALL the times...... but Im feeling better today and im off to the incompetent doctor on campus today. this is a text book case so it should be straight forward to treat. but on the bright side....Im feeling all rested:)
Imagine this my exam went well today but the only problem the sleep deprivation was doing terrible things to my head. I felt like crap so I told my body... sleep for as long as you want.... we need to get back on track. And can you believe how long I slept..... 3 STINKIN HOURS!!! and i couldnt even fall asleep again. Im up and perky :S i better be able to VEG OUT like I want to when these things over. NOTHING comes between me and my sleep. NOTHING!
3 down.....i can hear the clock ticking... May 16th here i come. now for hell week!
I'm Shallow....SO What!? So I was talking to this guy about the fact that my great grand father never acknowledged his illegitimate mulatto child. He was like" so how do you feel about that?" How am I supposed to feel about it? Who am I supposed to be angry with? And exactly what effect does it have on my life at present....other than the obvious (Im here because of my bastard grand-daddy) SO then he procedes to say that I would have been good to interview but I have no feelings. And hes right... I really dont know what gets me all riled up and passionate. Except partying and other things *heh heh* I thought about it and thought some more and came up with... Im incredibly shallow. I always knew I was a ditz but I cant find one single thing to have strong feelings about. But how bad a thing is this? This just means that my blood pressure doesnt rise too often and I dont get all worked up over things I cant change. Its all well and good to think about the plight of the black man in modern society or the sexual discrimination against women in Kenya. Or even the fact that Class of 2005 Faculty of Medical Sciences is a bunch of immature freaks of South Asian descent or that one of them uses the study rooms for a bathroom (number 2 no less!!) therefore I dont have access to them. Or the fact that I broke as ass! And I could go on and on and on. But all for what? Not a damned thing. I just trying to pass these exams (see the hard work im putting in) so I dont have to cut my summer short(enough inspiration for me) and I could party for longer. Also so I can graduate sooner and make some money so I can afford to party like I want to.
also im on triniscene looking ultraretarded...but sharlon looks good so i guess its ok
One Down 16 to go.... today was ok. but this was the easiest exam so here comes the stress.
Sometimes I think if its not one thing its the next. Ive been blessed with some character flaws that ensure there's never a dull, drama free moment in my life. Unfortunately I havent the slightest clue how to change them. Theres always room for improvement and sometimes I tend to think that Im not experiencing personal growth. maybe I need to attend some self help seminars or go to a shrink or something. i wonder if people would think i was crazy if i went to a head shrinker. Oh yeah... they think that already.
well back to the studying.
btw i love this song on the radio
(8) The smile on your face lets me know that you need me There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me The touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall You say it best.. when you say nothing at all (8)
It rained today. a good hard stay in bed rain. it hasnt rained properly in months but it did today...this is why....
Machel is in jail:) drugs no doubt I found out that my ex is really a girls man kinda man whore and been keeping it from me ( i trained you well grasshopper) i studied really hard today id say those are reasons enough for a downpour in Hades
now to the books! i going mash up these so and so exams
Cherry Kool-Aid and Mountain Dew exams have a way of getting me down. and when i get in this mood the floodgates open. and every flaw is magnified and then theres the snowball effect. and by the end of the night im a dunce doomed to fail... and not only that but im a terrible incompetent incapable of living in the real world, with screwed up priorities and no value for whats really important.
truth or fiction? probably fiction. time will tell
here's hoping that the future doesnt swallow me whole, chew me up and spit me out in little pieces
Last Night Was Fun Went out with my flatmate Sharlon....my delinquent equal and we had a cool time. But so many teenyboppers! Now dont get me wrong. I was one of them once so I understand their plight. But this means Im getting old and I just dont know where the aged hang out!:S
Now I dont usually do this.... this thing is in my inbox everyday and I never check it.... but because I have NO personal email Im forced to check my junk mail.
Here is your horoscope for Sunday, April 27:
Your moment-to-moment agenda is meaningless. It wouldn't hurt to be objective about your long-term plans, either. You end up accomplishing something that you never dreamed would be necessary.
Isnt that something? Thats exactly how Im living my life! I fear long term plans.... they always get squashed. ah well off to study