Today I went out to see my friend Richard, whom I haven't seen in about 5 years or so. He still looks the same. We "did luch" on an outdoor terrace of this italian restaurant. It was terribly yummy. It's a shame I couldnt finish it all. But the interesting thing (or not) is that I ordered Chicken Fettuccini Alfredo. Which just happens to be the same dish I ordered when i went out to dinner with Bretts family in Baltimore. Which is the same thing i order whenever i go to an italian restaurant. Thats kind of boring isnt it? Its like...try something new. But iit tastes so good! I tried something new once and it wasnt great. From then on I just stuck to my alfredo. Todays was the yummiest Ive every had. Richard hasnt changed much. Which is strange because he's obviously changed. But ti didnt feel like i hadnt seen him in 5 years..well 6 when i think about it. I wonder what thats about.
Grand Central is beautiful by the way. Such architecture. Such detail. Id like to see those "stars" in the ceiling with the lights off.
But anyways. I got off the train tonight and had to wait so frigging long for my transfer. Thats always the case with downtown trains at night though. but the worst thing was when i got off the train and walked up the steps its pissing rain. And there was thunder and lightning. I walked down the Avenue until I came to my street (soaked at this point) then the lightning got worse and I started sprinting! I wasnt afraid of getting wet. It was the damned lightning that had me. Ive seen too many pics of forked lightning flashing over Ney York. hehe So Ade's scared of lightning...more than she's scared of getting scraped in Flatbush at 9:30pm. tsk tsk. What a freakin shame. My head needs examining. "In need of a shrink" signing out
Psycho B*tch yeah thats me. I lose my mind ever so often and bug out for a few minutes at a time. But I generally do it in private. It sucks when people know that youre a psycho bitch. People that dont know you. Yeah yeah yeah I put myself out there with this stupid thing but I dont have to know that people know Im crazy. I write this thing and pink slip and baby daddy and Fam'ly let me know how they think. But the other 33 people that visit the page...I dont know who they are!! Now I know that people know that I know that they know I bugg out. Sigh
What A Man I'm almost done my book and it was great. There was this male character in there that was like a dream. I'm lucky that I have my own dream character in my messed up story line. How lucky can one girl be?? To find her very own Mr. Perfect?
Ive done nothing today. I just lay in bed and watched tv for the entire day so far. At least I caught up on my Real World though. But now more TV for me. Ive found a book to read and Im going to work on expanding my vocabulary and being eloquent. Tomorrow I go back to the city. I dont know if i missed it there. Its hard to compare Brooklyn and Manhattan. But I'll be back to BK. Im feeling slightly antisocial today. But today is definitely a good day.
Im in Brooklyn now. I walked down the street on the way to my aunts place and I heard reggae and calypso. And Im seeing my family bit by bit. Im a happy camper. Today I met with my friend Leon and we walked down Flatbush avenue. I have to go back tomorrow. My self control is under pressure here. No more shopping Ade....but I have to get some tops for pink slip so thats a good excuse. But I got a lesson in NBA jerseys. I know that champion is "wack" and Nike is better and the authentic are the best but theyre like twice the amount of the Nike. If I were a guy....well if I cared about bball jerseys id get the Nike. 60US for a stupid flimsy thing seems a bit out of my league but ....if i had money to waste...Id get the Nike.
I love Brooklyn. All the West Indians. I miss home more than ever now. But I only have 2 weeks to go and lots of family to see if the mean time. I'll survive. I miss my mammy!:(
So Im in a messed up mood right now. I feel like crunching something and I cant get on the msn and no one's on AIM. Thus and therefore I'm going to air my dirty laundry on blogger.
Previous entry had to be edited because of a case of mistaken identity. My baby would never do anything to hurt me:)
And now Brett isnt coming home til Friday. He was supposed to come today or tomorrow. And yuh know what. I dont even care anymore. It's times like these when you know where you stand in the food chain. Seems like Im a bottom feeder. And just for future reference...Im not dissing my friends for any boyfriend. EVER. What youre doing if F'd up buddy but its always good to know how important you are.
I'll regret this in about 5 minutes after Ive posted it. but theres always Edit. It's not my fault though....I need to get it out yuh know:)
OK, Im over it. F**K the world! Tomorrow I go to Brooklyn. forsure this time. I didnt do much stuff today. I was supposed to go to Newport but I'm sick of the whole thing. Im ready to go home. So I cut my shopping short and came back and slept. Im tired of wanderig the streets alone...I want some company. (this is Ade feeling sorry for herself) I need to go to sleep. I always wake up happy.
I went to the movies today. FINALLY! I watched this movie called Monsoon Wedding. Go watch it! This movie is up there in the list of great movies Ade has watched. Definitely. Its indian and it has subtitles. When I noticed this I was a bit disturbed. Thoughts of the cheesey Indian movies which show in the Palladium in Trinidad flashed across my mind. But even though its a VERY Indian movie (swear words in Hindi and all) it's very thought provoking. So I watched a "deep" movie. It made me happy and sad and angry and made me laugh all in 2 hours. It dealt with love of family, love between a woman and a man, arranged marriages, the caste system in Indian and child abuse. It wasnt all processed like most of the movies I watch. No action scenes or special effects. Just great dialogue, talented actors and a well written story.
And now Im in a mood. The movie made me think and I had lots of time to think while waiting for Brett's sister while she shopped at Macy's. Im miserable. Whenever I get to thinking I realise all the things that are wrong in my life. It's like an avalanche. The snowball effect starts up and then it goes from I watched a sad movie to my life is crap and beyond improvement. So thats the point Im at right now. Of course these thoughts arent warranted. (maybe) But for right now it's whats real to me and thus I believe every thought in my presently warped mind.
On a better note. Tomorrow is Memorial Day and m going shopping. 34th Street and New Port Mall will be seeing me but I think thats about it. I think Im ready to go home now.