I was thinking....what gets to me? (in a good way) the pics had me thinking.... I love.... luscious lips sexy smiles confidence intelligence cornrows guys playing basketball guys taking off their shirts after playing basketball sweaty male bodies baggies that surf low boxers boxer briefs going commando possessiveness....to a degree skill (at anything;) ok...i think im going to need a cold shower. Is it me or are my hormones raging???
Attention A random guy was staring me down tonight. Like you know...one of those "I want to talk to you" stares. It was a pretty strange thing. I'm just not used to that kind of attention. It was flattering. I know I shouldn't feel flattered by random attention at a restaurant but Im human. Kill me!
this brings me to flirtation.
Usually I cry it down. It's so not me....although Ive been accused of it many times. (seems im a natural. I dont need to try) I don't like being coy. If I want something I go after it. I hate wasting time. It works sometimes...it backfires other times. Now...I'm enjoying it. KILL ME!! I say again.
This flirting Im doing is fun and harmless. Well hopefully it's harmless. Am I allowed to flirt if I dont want anything? I dont know. Too bad I took out these damned comments (not like anyone would comment) But I want some opinions. Im new to this. more later
What Am I Doing? Im doing sh*te. But am I enjoying it? Yes I am. Chatting and oogling D'Angelo in the middle of the night. Class tomorrow at 8. WIll I make it? No I wont. And this is why my mother will never get this link!!
Back to D' Angelo Look at those lips. Im definitely a lips person. Well a mouth person. I have an oral fixation!!
Im enjoying this picture posting thing....as if the damned page didnt take long enough to load! good night
The Good, The Bad and The Ugly - Drama Queen Extrordinaire , Ade Kinch Today I was called dramatic. Who, me? Noway!!! hehe.
I thought about it, between tears and "it's the end of the World" thoughts and I realised....that's my problem. It's really funny. When I think about it, most of my troubles have come from my being excessively emotional. When I feel things, I feel them much more stongly than the average person. And boy am I capable of making a mountain out of a molehill! It's getting worse now though. I obviously have too much time on my hands. I think too much. So now after a few minutes of rational thought.... this is what Ive come up with. 1. This internet is gone....TODAY! before i make a bigger fool of myself. 2. I have to take blame this time. Even though you handled things badly I shouldnt have tried to drag an innocent bystander into my issues. 3. On an entirely separate note.... I love you Marcus. I'm happy you're capable of dealing with me...otherwise I'd be growing old alone. Drama Queen - signing out!
My Personal Profile from astrology.com Kinda long but interesting.....
You appear gentle and soft, and you act rather reserved with others until you know them well and feel it is safe to be open with them. You have a strong need for emotional security and a sense of belonging, and are deeply attached to the past: your heritage, roots, family, cherished friends, familiar places, etc. Making radical changes or moves away from what is known and safe can be very painful and difficult for you. You tend to cling and hold on to people, memories, possessions of personal or sentimental significance. Having a home, a safe haven, is very important to you.
You approach life emotionally and subjectively and are sensitive to the emotional atmosphere, the subtle undercurrents of feeling in and around you. Instinctive and nonrational, you are often unable to give a clear, simple explanation for your actions. Something FEELS right, or it doesn't.
Your emotions and personal loyalties tend to color your thoughts and opinions. You view life from a very personal perspective and often cannot mentally detach yourself from your own personal bias and prejudices. You are apt to be concerned primarily with how something affects you and those dear and close to you, rather than with the principle or the broader social implications. Put simply: if it is good for me and mine, it is good. If it is not good for me and mine, it is no good.
You are tenaciously loyal, protective, and supportive of those you care about, and have a very strong nurturing, motherly nature (regardless of your gender). You empathize with others and intuitively sense the feelings and needs of other people. Compassionate and sympathetic, you are easily moved by others' pain, and you are often the one others seek out when they need comfort, reassurance, or help.
Your moods fluctuate and change frequently and you are sometimes open, sometimes withdrawn emotionally. You communicate nonverbally and appreciate a person who can pick up subtle cues and hints, rather than having to make everything explicit.
You never forget either kindness or unkindness shown to you.
Four Walls, A Desk and a Computer It's 3 am and Im up. I'm not tired now and I have to be up for class in 4 hours. I skipped all my classes yesterday and now it looks like today will be a repeat. I'm sick of this life I have here. I need to get out. Since I came back from Barbados I've been off this compund once and that was a 2 hour tip to the supermarket. Since then Ive only been out of my room to go to class. And then there's this damned internet. It's not healthy the amount of time I spend here doing nothing of consequence. My priorities are shifting, and the line between what's important and what's not is becoming blurred. People that bear no importance to my real life seem to take on greater meaning in my virtual existence. Things that should not be an issue are becoming a source of argument. It's quite unnerving. So Ive been bitching about it for a little while now. Not really doing anything to remedy the situation. I have to decide what I'm going to do. Weigh the importance of ready access to my family (MIA!!) and close friends against the negative effects this new life is having on me. I really dont have time for this melodrama. I have so much work to do! So it's settled. The internet has to go before I lose all sense of reality. :( Why couldnt things be simple? sigh
Rain I just walked though pouring rain and I got soaked. At first I was contemplating running as I tried to dodge raindrops. Then I remembered how much fun it is to walk through the rain. It was great. I recommend it. It's a very liberating experience. Some of the most momentous occassions in my life have taken place in the rain. I love the rain! And now I'm home I can just go to sleep...(too bad it's alone)
My orals (examination...perv!!) went well. It seems that I have issues with memorization but I grasp concepts well. So I was able to figure out what they were asking for. My day didnt totally suck.
Procrastination I have a head ache and Im sick and tired of Pharmacology. I also have the attention span of a 3 year old. It's a wonder I got this far. Just 3 more years and I'll be through. SO it's a definite all nighter for me tonight. With frequent breaks it seems.
Topic for tonight...Ade's Bitchin' Ways
My personality tends to be a bit much for the average person to deal with. Only a few can stick around when all my bad habits and hang ups come to light. But, Ive come to realise...it's ok to be me. Even though I can be annoying and bitchy at times there's a whole lot of good stuff that comes with the pakage. So if you like me in spite of my faults I know you really like me.
With that said...it's OK if you don't like me.
Some people just dont have what it takes. C'est la vie.
It's Official I does do bere SH*TE! i got an exam tomorrow and online chatting wid sexy men (well man rather!!) I wont fail though Im good like that (hear me) So Im going to pull myself away (must....be....strong.....) and not let "hot stuff" lead me down the path of destruction!! I will conquer this Pharmacology! I am woman! :) Strange....strange things are happening....strange