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Sunday, March 31, 2002

OK Im screwed
what have i done???
so much for updating
ive messed up everything

Ade Kinch from URL @ 2:56 PM

comments anyone?

Ade Kinch from URL @ 2:30 PM

OK....very intimidating. Rome wasnt built in a day or by Ade( HAHAH Imacheese)
I'll start with something simple...comments. I dont know if i should....I might just get zero comments every darned day and that would be uncool. Or I might get comments and not like them. that would be uncool as well....decisions decisions.
Boredom wins!! Comments it is!!!

Ade Kinch from URL @ 2:23 PM

Im online again....well still. Im enjoying doing nothing.
It's Easter and lunch was yums. A bit lonely but thats ok.
I want to update my template. This html jargon looks intimidating. Do I have the patience with this? I dont think so. Let me try.
wish me luck

Ade Kinch from URL @ 2:20 PM

As jaded as I am, there's still a part of me that feels that this is the highlight of woman's life.
Spending the rest of your life with the person you love unconditionally. I'm definitely looking forward to that.

My sister got married yesterday and I was maid of honour. What a hell of a job. My advice...dont go into the position unless you expect to be running around like a crazy person on the days leading up to the wedding. It was beautiful and she made a gorgeous bride.
This vacation has been wonderful. I was close to the beach, in my own place (kinda) with a good book and better company. What more can a girl ask for? For right now life is great and I'm happy.
Back to the marriaqe thing, though. I was thinking about mine....

Life doesnt work out the way i plan it...ever. So it's like I dont want to make plans because it's garunteed that they will get screwed. Still I can't help but imagine the perfect life with the perfect person by my side the whole time. (not realistic??? i can dream can't I?)

Im trying not to think of Trinidad. School is depressing. Of course I didnt do the work i was supposed to while i was home and im light years behind. When I get back to school I have a hell of alot of catching up to do. Who knows if Im capable. But I cant afford to fail so I guess I will do what is required to pass.
more later. I dont feel like typing anymore

Ade Kinch from URL @ 10:55 AM

Sunday, March 24, 2002

I'm Home!
What a wonderful feeling. Really. Suddenly my world doesnt consist of school, a dinky room and a computer:) I'v been busy all day with no time for self reflection and all that jazz that gets depressing at times. Sometimes you just have to live life without all the contemplation and deliberation. Just do what you want to do for once.
I went out tonight and even though the place was empty I had a super (hahah...what kinda word is that??) time thanks to Mr. Joe Grind and company. No pressure. just good music and a better dance partner.You have to love the old dub. It's an essential part of every fete.
I havent made it to the beach thus far...well into the sea at least. Ive been busy sleeping...all day and I think I will just continue the trend tomorrow. This place is relaxing. And sisters are cool...even when theyre getting on your last nerve. I dont know...I thank God I wasnt an only child.
OK...enough vodka laced babbling (not much really!) Im going to bed now....
life is great
can we get an Amen!!??
God save the kitties!

Ade Kinch from URL @ 4:08 AM

Wednesday, March 20, 2002

Love Yourself
That's my good advice for the day. Also never give someone the power to alter your mood. Although it often seems beyond your control. But try anyways.
Wow, I just heard this song that I haven't heard in years!

Insensitive by Jan Arden

How do you cool your lips,
after a summer's kiss?
How do you rid the sweat,
after the body bliss?
How do you turn your eyes,
from the romantic glare?
How do you block the sound of a voice,
you'd know anywhere?
Oh, I really should have known by the time you drove me home,
by the vagueness in your eyes, casual good-byes,
by the chill in your embrace, the expression on your face
that told me you might have
some advice to give, on how to be
How do you numb your skin,
after the warmest touch?
How do you slow your blood,
after the body rush?
How do you free your soul,
after you've found a friend?
How do you teach your heart,
its a crime to fall in love again?
Oh, you probably won't remember me,
its probably ancient history.
I'm one of the chosen few
who went ahead and fell for you.
I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch,
I fell too fast, I feel too much.
I thought that you might have
some advice to give, on how to be

Why are people like that? What benefit does one get from hurting another person?
I mean soemtimes it's not intentional, but people can be plain mean sometimes. I guess that's what life is all about. Dealing with those SOB's out there. It's always important to learn from mistakes and avoid such people when possible. Even though there are wolves in sheep's clothing there's always some of the bad shining through. It's just time to leave when you see that. Don't stay around for the full unveiling...for the de-wooling so to speak:)
OK...enough words of wisdom. im beginning to feel like Ms. Cleo now!
More later...or even sooner. Im procrastinating

Ade Kinch from URL @ 9:56 PM

Tuesday, March 19, 2002

Am I back in the blogging mood? I can't be sure. I guess I will have to see.
Reason for lapsing on the whole blog thing...I guess its been a rocky week or so and Im not in the mood to bare my soul completely here. That would be dumb wouldnt it?
Im in a much better mood now. For now.
SO I slept in class today...for about 20 mins straight. Im so tired! It was a rough night. Definitely.
Im fighting the urge to go to my bed now...thus the blogging.

I'll be home in 3 days. The countdown is definitely on. Just to be away from this computer and this tiny ass room will be enough for me. My world isnt usually this small and there just too much personality (mine!) to fit in this little place. It's crowded in here.
Things at school are stressing me out as well. I need to get away from that. The people in administration just don't care about the students. In fact im convinced theyre trying to make it harder for us. As though it wasn't hard enough.
OK its time to get back to school now. One more hour of pathology (4 hours in one day. AHHHHH). Im praying to keep my sanity as I type.
More later

Ade Kinch from URL @ 12:43 PM

Saturday, March 16, 2002

Guess I'm finally letting go of my vice:)
Im so not in th mood to write anything.
I'll write when im in a better mood. Which really defeats the entire purpose.
Things just aren't great.

Ade Kinch from URL @ 9:47 AM

Thursday, March 14, 2002

What a freaking productive night! Im definitely satisfied. I just came back from an intense study session in the study rooms at school and now it's time for some idleness (is that a word??)
So it seems as though my addiction to the net is finally under control. Nothing like a stern speaking to from you mother to put you back on track. It seems like Im still a little girl. But thats ok, I'm like Peter Pan. I plan never to grow up. I still consider myself to be 18 or so. Which poses a problem because my little sister is 18. Although she's not supposed to grow up either. She's supposed to stay nice and sweet and 14 for the rest of her life. If she's 14 forever then I can be 18 forever and its all good like that!
I missed my evening classes and had a 3 hour nap instead. Is it still a nap if its that long?
but Im tired right now! Im just lazy I guess.
Tomorrow then

Ade Kinch from URL @ 12:48 AM

Wednesday, March 13, 2002

Also...very important to note... true friends will never let you matter what.
Thanks Marcus

Ade Kinch from URL @ 1:13 PM

On The Cock Controversy
Just so no one gets the wrong impression. I wasn't suggesting that Im any expert on the whole chicken thing. I buy my chicken from the supermarket. I buy chicken parts....not even the whole chicken. I prefer thighs....dark meat is better to me. But when I buy the chicken I have no clue whether its a female bird or a male bird. So I personally dont know whether cocks are tastier. But if I manage to compare the two I'll be sure to let the general public know which is better.
On another note. Im officially in possession of both my plane tickets. Barbados and Nueva York. This definitely makes me feel wonderful. I LOVE travelling. When the love of New York tones down I'll go some place else. But until that time its just me and NYC and our continuing love affair.
When i get home I take lots of pics and I'll have access to a scanner so maybe then I'll have something to post other than my daily rantings.
more later

Ade Kinch from URL @ 1:08 PM

Tuesday, March 12, 2002

The Walls Are Closing In

I need to sleep. Tomorrow has to be a better day. Enough of this.

Ade Kinch from URL @ 11:56 PM

Chicken Farms Are Fun, Really....

Today was the feld trip to the poultry farm. Quite interesting. Especially the on-site post mortem. They just popped the poor chicken's neck! Birds are so dumb! But the funniest thing was when the question was asked, "Why are there so many males in the pen?" and one girl said confidently, "Because cock tastes better."
Makes sense to me! I wasn't about to argue.
That wasn't the reson by the way.:) Im sure it's all about personal preference anyways.
Tonight, no more than 1 hour online. Nuff work flinging down! Plus I have to make time for Real World. Highlight of my week!
So Im off to rest...or run. One of the two.
Tah Tah

Ade Kinch from URL @ 4:26 PM

Yes Im on again. My sleep pattern is totally screwed. Full day tomorrow with a field trip and all. But I'm tired of Embryology and I cant sleep so what else am I supposed to do? Plus I'm in a mood (what's new?)
Im feeling particularly incompetent. Can I do anything right?
I like this song. Thus the name of my Blog. Sometimes one can just relate....

Don't Let Me Get Me

Never win first place, I don't support the team
I can't take direction, and my socks are never
Teachers dated me, my parents hated me
I was always in a fight cuz I can't do nothin'

Everyday I fight a war against the mirror
I can't take the person starin' back at me
I'm a hazard to myself

Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
- Pink

That is all.... I apologise....for being me (?)

Ade Kinch from URL @ 1:41 AM

Monday, March 11, 2002

Oh yeah. I forgot to note. Im returning to Baltimore in May. Its a bit premature to be thinking about it but these things happen when life is quiet. So Im going back for my (and I use the term very loosely) graduation. It's like a reunion for me. I havent seen these people in like 2 and a half years. I didnt even say Good bye to some of them.
Just as a side note...I DETEST goodbyes. Id rather not do the whole mushy "I'll keep in touch" thing when you know you wont. And its very sad sometimes. I mean...people that played some important role in your life will no longer be a part of it.
Im like a train station...people pass through my life..never stopping really. ANYWAYS...back to the matter at hand!
So I'm going back to Baltimore. Im very very excited. I dont know who's looking forward to seeing me but Im definitely anticipating so many meetings.(Hey Rory!!) Some more than others.
But in a way it's a bittersweet occassion. Im really going to this graduation to say my final goodbyes. I mean...once these people leave Hopkins and return to their respective towns or grad schools or whatever Im ensured that I wont see them again. Life is shitty like that sometimes. But there's always NY. Thats one place I'll be returning to as many times as I can.
Enough blogging for one night.

Ade Kinch from URL @ 9:34 PM

Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey
- Shakira

This girl is amazing. I love her songs. Well the released ones anyways.
Isn't being in love a wonderful feeling? And not only can she sing? She can move! I semester...belly dancing lessons. Those would definitely come in handy. Its all about spicing up my life. Next semester though. And maybe even some Latin dancing lessons. One must always make time for something more than school! (I have so much talk!)
IM going home in 11 days. What a glorious thought. Ten days of family and more....
Life is great!
Can we get an Amen!!??

Ade Kinch from URL @ 8:51 PM

I'm home for lunch. We finished a class early and I'm supposed to be catching up on some sleep. I actually made it to my 8 o' clock class. This took such an effort it's not even funny. But remember, when in doubt, press snooze.
INSOMNIA. The last time i saw on the clock this morning was 5:35. Before that was 3:42, 4:17....a few others. I have no clue why I couldnt sleep. It happens sometimes, usually when I'm worrying about something. This awful tossing and turning. Maybe it was the lack of productivity this weekend.
THEN...when I finally fell asleep I had a nightmare! I was kidnapped by Michael Jordan and held captive in his mansion (and this is a bad thing, why?).
After lunch is Pharmacology lab.
You know what...this is boring! My life is officially boring! What was I thinking??? I have nothing to fill a blog.
But I'll write anyways:)
More "nothingness" later
You think I'd leave your side baby? - Sade

Ade Kinch from URL @ 11:53 AM

Sunday, March 10, 2002

Another day another entry. Im being very good at this. Its obvious to me ( and Im sure you too) that I need a life. Today I slept just about all day. then I realised that when i sleep monday comes much quicker. So I came online and chatted instead. Now its late as hell and its almost monday and I still havent done much for the weekend. I need to snap out of this. Very quickly.
Im in a bit of a mood now. The "Don't Let Me Get Me" song would be very apt right now. I need to stop with the Ade bashing!
So from now on...its only good Ade thoughts.
Im not finished my romance novel yet. This is a particularly bad one. Its not gripping at all. It's like lady, you love the man...stop playing de ass!! How annoying.
Thats the thing though. Does it make sense to put yourself out there and make your feelings known? Or should one just play coy and do the whole flirting thing. Do men like females that flirt? From my observations they do. The giggly girlies get the most attention. I find it particularly annoying. Please!
And why are men so cowardly? if yuh like the girlie let her know!
By the way this isnt about me. This is about someone elses experience.
More later...maybe
Its been a hard week for me though. Things getting rough. I definitely need to go home.
My tank is on empty! Please the kittens!
more later

Ade Kinch from URL @ 10:32 PM

Saturday, March 09, 2002

What a day!! What a boring day!
My mum tells me that only people with no intelligence get bored. Well just call me dumb for today then.
What did I do? Went into town and couldnt resist a sale. I had to get these PJ pants. So comfy!!!
Then I came home and lounged the entire day! Slept and read and slept some more. And I didnt even feel to blog (gasp)
Now Im disgruntled.
I feel like my life is lacking something......
Well at least Rick Dees is coming on later. i'll have something to do for a few hours then.
OK later.
Dont you just love "Underneath Your Clothes" by Shakira
I do.
Oh My

Ade Kinch from URL @ 7:06 PM

Friday, March 08, 2002

Back again.
Today was really interesting. I got to see a post mortem carried out on a dolphin! Flipper's guts and liver, blow hole, everything were all over the place. Very interesting! There were even parasites in the liver and stomach! Its good that all this Parasitology Im trying to learn can be applied. Nice worms... The poor thing was bitten by a shark and beached off the West coast of Trinidad. They couldn't save it. Cuh dear.
Also I got my K Block baby T today. MIDDLE K!!! Maybe I will have a pic to show some time later. Just a bunch of hot girls living in one flat.:) It's really not fair to put us all together...the good looks shoulda been more evenly distributed throughout the Hall! Oh well.
Life isnt fair is it:)
The electricity was off all day! So I couldnt come on earlier. Plus I had to shower in freezing cold water this morning. NOT GOOD! Brrrr. No computer....One must never take technology forgranted. It wasnt so bad though. I had my romance novel to read. I swear I dont know why I read those things. Theyre ALL a variation of the same plot. Boy meets girl, they're both attracted to each other BUT girl plays hard to get. Girl comes to her senses and they live happily ever after. But I love them anyways. Especially when theyre set in some historical era. Men were very gentlemanly then.
Whats the issue with this Oops song?? Nasty freaky girl! tsk tsk. >:)
maybe more later. I always have lots of things on my mind to share.

Ade Kinch from URL @ 5:02 PM

Back again. Im beginning to think this thing is addictive. Maybe it is....
But Im recording all these things so I can come back later and have some Kix!
Club Coconuts was definitely the place to be tonight. I had a great time....well for about 30 mins. But its better than being in my room on the internet. I think....well maybe; maybe not. They were playing some great reggae tonght. So much dibbiness. And I didnt disappoint. Danced up a storm...all alone, mind you, but it better that way some times!
Now it's three hours later and my ears are ringing and im a little "happier" than when i left and the frigging Pharmacology lab still isnt done.
What the hell is my issue??
But my bed is very much calling me. Ihope I make it to my 8 o clock....
there should be a law against 8 o clock classes...grumble!
off to bed.
well today.
back to killing kittens
I love Fridays!

Ade Kinch from URL @ 3:42 AM

Thursday, March 07, 2002

As you can see, my urge to blog is quite strong today. Blog...i wonder which bozo thought up that word. Blog. How silly.
Isnt it amazing how quickly your day can change? One second you can be happy and then something insignificant happens and you're all angry and upset. Well that happened to me today. I that normal? Maybe it only happens to fickle folk. It's quite a terrible feeling.
Today I missed my 8 o' clock class. I'm having serious issues with waking up at 7 EVERY FREAKING DAY!...especially when i spend the night chatting online. But Im going to be good tonight. Tonight is the beginning of the rest of my life...right?
So that means I have to get off the internet and go do my Pharmacology Lab. I hate those things!
I need to stop hating school and embrace the fact that im stuck in this dreadful institution for the next 3 and a half years! With that said Im going off...Im probably not going offline right now. MSN calls!
More later

Ade Kinch from URL @ 10:23 PM

So.... the whole blog thing is for my entertainment. I cant really imagine that many people will be rushing to check up on my life. Im a bit bored here and this seems like some entertainment. I dont think I have time to be bored but i manage to do it anyways.
I'll probably publish more than once a day ( as you can see) since Im online with nothing to do quite often. I'll just do this til i get sick of it and move onto something else. Knowing my attention span that shouldnt take too long. to do some studying. Who needs this school thing??? I dont!
More later...I promise

Ade Kinch from URL @ 12:08 PM

ALright. Before i go getting excited.
I think I lost 2 posts already. As I said before but you probably didnt see....they need a book "Blogging For Dummies" for regular Folk like myself.
Maybe it will show up. OK. I wont do anything further until I figure this thing out!
No need to look idiotic on the net.
Its working now. Now for the proper introductory post

Ade Kinch from URL @ 12:02 PM

I got it!
I finally got it!
well I dont know if i have it but i have something. I just found the post button. And all that was needed was a bit of observation.
OK...lets see if this will work

Ade Kinch from URL @ 11:58 AM

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